Some choices we make we wonder about forever. Like whether or not to have more children or not to have more children, as my example. And I know if I had decided to have more I would not have ever regretted it but since I chose just one, I will be haunted about it forever.
Some people likely feel the same way about lost loves. The "what might have been" aspect. I never feel that way about that choice. I could never have found a partner more suited to me.
But the children part I always wonder about. I always will.
"Sometimes I've been to crying for unborn children that might have made me complete; but I took the sweet life and never knew I'd be bitter from the sweet..." Charlene, 'Ive Never Been to Me'. I totally relate to this verse of this song and to what your saying, it's a hard pill to swallow as a woman and a mother. Cheesy 80's song, strong message.
ReplyDeleteI completely understand what you mean. I too long for a baby of "our own" ... which makes me insane... because I have three of " my own " and he has one.
ReplyDeleteI made my OWN decision to terminated the possibilty of ever having any children again, at 22 years old. ( I had a 3 year old, a 1 year old, and a new born at the time)I was married, thought it was forever, so that was it for me... until everything changed.
Now I am so happy with a love that is unique and exciting, our kids are much older... and more so responsible for themselves, so now...I long so much for a little baby... with all the tiny little features, and the smells, and most of all, one that came from the both of us. It IS a hard pill to swallow, especially when you know you are a good mother, and it seems like everyone, every where...is having babies now.
Then you see the pregnant teenaged girls walking around with their moms in grocery stores, ( which assumingly means that the father is no where around ) and it makes my heart hurt for that baby, for the young mom... will they be ok?
Or the mom's that just completely should never have been given the privilege to have children, to pro-create, and then abandon their babies... GEESH!
So... leading back to the subject now... yes, decisions are hard to make, then when they are made... there is no turning back, thats it... forever, all though you can always be like Bradgelina and adobt from over seas... you know, like the song! I have thought about it!!
Have a great morning! :-)