Watching & Sometimes Even Thinking

I've been watching a lot of tv the last few weeks. Don't know why. Lots of interesting things are on I suppose.

I still watch Intervention & Hoarders. And always, always No Reservations. Although I don't think Tony's quite as cool as he used to be.

I'm over American Idol already & I just watched it for a few weeks.

America's Next Top Model is getting ready to start & I love that. But I only watch it on dvr & I fast forward through everything but the pictures & the judging. I don't see any of the the drama that goes on in the house.

I do end up seeing it eventually, however, because I'll get caught up in a marathon season run on live tv, I think it's Oxygen, & I'll pause it enough to skip through the commercials but not enough to skip through the show.

There's also a show I've been watching that has really moved me. And it's really, really made me think.

It's 16 & Pregnant on mtv.

It's a good show. It's a sad show. It's a real show.

Now I've seen a lot of shit. I've done a lot of shit. But some of the stuff the girls do & go through on that show just blows my mind.

The way their parents talk to them. The way they talk to their parents. The way their boyfriends/baby daddy's talk to them & treat them.

Tonight's episode was the best Mom I've seen out of any of them but she had a lot of help from her Dad. Not her daughter's dad, but her dad. Her baby's daddy was a piece of shit.

One couple on there really broke my heart but totally impressed me by how grounded they were when their parents were so messed up. They chose adoption. It looked hard & it looked horrible but they made the best decision that they could make for themselves & their daughter.

It's just a really interesting show.

The only Dad that ended up being supportive was the one that gave the child up for adoption. And also another guy that ended up moving his new, young family into the 2nd floor apartment of his Grandma's house.

The rest of the time it shows these 16 year old girls struggling. Hating their lives & the choices they made & being basically abandoned by the baby's dads.

I think it is a really good example of why not to become pregnant at 16. Or at least why it would be so hard to be a Mom that young.

It haunts me.

I'm just hoping that there's a pill I can give my son when he's in his teens to keep him from knocking anyone up. Although he has his Dad's cautious approach to life so that gives me comfort. He's not like me ~ wild & reckless. Thank goodness.

I heard someone tell me the other day that you know if there was a birth control pill for guys that they would take it. That they would be much more diligent than teenage girls are.

I totally agreed, both at the time & still. But I'm not really sure why.

Are we always searching for love? And maybe at that young age some of us think that's gonna lock it in.

Or is it the standard, it won't happen to me?

I think it's both. What do you think?

Have a great night!